爱玲我好想抱抱你

Ailing, I Really Want to Give You a Hug ~ The murmuring rain, like living by a stream. I would rather it rain every single day, just so your "he" would come. Sister Ailing, I really want to hold you in my arms. I so wish I could have been by your side during your hardest days. I so wish I could wring a warm towel for you, put a mask on your face, and let that damn bastard go fetch his own hot water. I so wish I could have scouted the places for you when you were hunting for apartments everywhere, getting everything perfectly settled just to your liking. I know all your genius and passion were devoted to your creations. You never wanted to deal with this messy, trivial nonsense—especially those rotten people and rotten things. Let me handle them for you. That way, You wouldn't have to wander displaced and destitute in a foreign land. Ah... I am so heartbroken. I weep for you, wailing and choking with sobs. Let my tears turn into that murmuring stream. That way, I can keep you company. From now on, when I look for a place to live—actually, I've already been doing this without even realizing it— I will always choose somewhere nestled in the mountains and by the water, a place with a stream or river nearby. Because that way, I can always be with you. Always be with you. I also love the rain. Whenever it rains, I think of your "murmuring rain," and I feel such pity, heartache, and anger for you. I also want to sit with you, And talk about those scars of yours. Don't be afraid. Don't be afraid. I know you can face them. And I will be very gentle, too. If once isn't enough, Your little brother will come visit you again. I know you love the Dream of the Red Chamber the most. One of your "Three Great Regrets" in life. Who knows, maybe someday, We can help you fulfill it. When that time comes, how about I hold the book, And read it aloud to you. Sounds good? Whoever tied the bell must untie it. Maybe just like that, You will finally be healed. I wish, I wish, I wish it comes true. Hug you, hug me, let's go hug Xueqin together. Okay?